Does anyone else ever feel like all they do is say to their kid "stop it!", "don't do that!" and "stop being naughty!"? I try to be patient, calm, rational. I try not to go berserk and lose it. I strive to set a good example and be a good role model. But geeez! These two little monkeys, this week in particular, have driven their mama absolutely bananas. My day goes in waves of emotions - I feel happy then angry, grateful then hard done by, content then frustrated, amused then annoyed, and sooo tired. I get resentful because I want to enjoy the time I have with them while they are still this age but it seems like the day is over and the feeding, changing, disciplining, cleaning bathing and putting to sleep has taken up every second before I have had time to "enjoy the now". I acknowledge the fact that I should enjoy the feeding and bathing etc. but with Leon still waking every hour around the clock at six months old and Mahlie going through an overly naughty phase (please be a phase) it's hard to not be so exhausted with it all. I have nothing left for Pete when he gets home. I am interrupted by someone or something with everything I do. Should I give up my 1-2 days a week of work? I love what I do, I'm booked for the next 18 months and we need the cashola. It's my time out. I feel better when I've been away for a few hours. It's not the answer to give it up, but it's what most people seem to think is a problem. Maybe it's just their age and it will get easier (please say it does). Maybe I need to re-train my mind to think a different way. Maybe I should read this. Maybe I just need more sleep. Maybe I should just shut up and be thankful and think of my friend whom has a year to live, my friend with a special needs baby... all of it goes through my head everyday... It's a bit messy in there.
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